Current mood:	distressed
Current music:	Simple and Clean - Utada Hikari

Oh man...
I don't know what I was thinking when I got Kai and Lei on the same boat together. Those two are impossible! All they do is constantly bicker, fight, rough house and whine OVER ME! I'm sick of it! You can't have a decent conversation with either of them because the other is always -right there-. I'm so sick of it! They're treating me more like a possession then anything else, one that can be kept away for no one else to see. Do they even care what I think about this? No!

This has been going on for far too long and it's only getting worse. It was only after I started dating Kai that Lei finally started to let his feelings for me out and... I just don't know. Did I make the right choice by choosing Kai? Sure, sometimes he can be... well... not sweet since he'd probably kill me if he ever heard me say that, but, nice? He's never liked anyone before, why does he like me? We're always fighting over little things but it never gets serious but I HATE how he's always so mean to everyone else! Why does he have to be so cold? They're just trying to be his friend...

Then you have Lei, who I dated back before I left our village. It was really a very sweet romance, and everyone supported us but I just felt so... suffocated. Like, I couldn't do anything without Lei there making sure I was ok.

I'm NOT made out of glass!!!

I think they're fighting is really starting to get to me. It's making me really irritable and testy. I see the same thing happen to Oliver when Enrique and Robert fight over him, except unlike me, Oliver tends to get a little hostile and actually hits people. I don't do that.

I've thought about this long and hard: A way to get the fighting to stop and I've really only come to one conclusion, as hard as it may be.

I won't have either of them.

Now, I'm off to play Kingdom Hearts to get my mind off things before I actually tell them...

*sigh*

This is going to be hard.

Rei >^u.u^